My Plea For Acceptance

Dear People I Want Affirmation From,

I'm sorry that I failed you. I'm sorry for not coming through on my role as a person. If only I had realized that when I said that it would not make you happy. If I hadn't have acted like that maybe we could've been friends. Maybe you would like me then. Maybe I could be the person you want as your best friend or the person you run to for help. But no,I have offended you. I wish I could please you. Can't you see how hard I try for you? That even a matter you have forgotten about I agonize over. Can't you see how much I care about you. I care if you are hurting and I want you to share with me all that you thinking and feeling.

I'm sorry I made that joke. I only said it because I thought you wanted me to say something like that. I thought that was how we got along. But no,I misunderstood and now you are mad at me. But if I didn't joke like that you would've said I was boring. I don't want to bore you. I want every interaction you have with me to be intriguing. I want to be the center of your attention.

I crave your attention! Please see it and give me affirmation!! When you ignore me or give a two word response, what am I suppose to think? Have you forgotten about our last encounter or are you mad at me so much you won't even look at me or am I so insignificant to you that you don't acknowledge my presence because that would waster your valuable time and effort?

^_^ You joked with me and smiled! All is right in the world again. Maybe I wasn't as worthless as I thought. Maybe you like me again.

Notice me,
Adele

[These are the things I think and feel on a regular basis with the people around me. I don't want to have this mindset anymore. I am a daughter of God and I am not meant to base my worth on the opinions of anyone but God. But it is hard to remember this.]