So Dibor is over. Thank God!!
I tell everyone who asks how it was I say "It was the worst experience of my life but the best experience of my life. I wouldn't trade it for anything."
I am so grateful for everything God did this year. Everyone he used to help me become who I am today.
And who am I today? How am I different?
I am Adele who learned how much God loves me. Jesus is crazy about me and I have only begun to discover the tip of the iceberg of his love.
My thoughts about Dibor, the program? Basically I believe every Christian should go through the program. Especially anyone who wants to go into ministry NEEDS to do a program like this that stretches you like it does. If you can't do Dibor you can't handle ministry. You can't. You will get burnt out and bitter. (And I'm not saying Dibor is the only program or that you even need a program to be ready for ministry. But God isn't gonna just throw you into whatever ministry just the way you are. He's gotta make a spiritual eunuch out of us, or we'll think saving people and helping them out is all about us and what WE're doing.)
I'm only saying this from personal experience. Looking back at my life I didn't really act like a Christian, even when I was doing "Christian" things. Nothing was about God, it was how it made me feel. If I made God happy then I would be blessed and life would be good. That is not how Jesus did things. It surprises me how I even got through life the way I did. But it's 'cause God loves me so much he didn't give up on me.
I think the coolest I think I learned this year was that I can be completely honest with God. Before I knew you can't keep anything from God but I thought when I talked to him he wanted to hear something nice and Christianese. But no, God wants my heart and wants me to share everything with him, even when it doesn't sound the greatest. He wants me to say that I don't trust him if i don't trust him. He wants me to be honest. But the great thing about him is that he loves us too much to let us stay that way. For example, if I say I don't trust him he reminds me of something in the bible, something to remind me that his love never fails. And he'll use a situation, in my life, where he's used that. God cares about us a lot. It's just up to us to care to listen to what he's got to say about what HE's doing. ^_^
He's pretty awesome.
