I haven't written anything recently, as you can tell. But I haven't been writing in my journal or anything. I'm not exactly sure what the reason is because I've been going through a lot. God has been changing my perspective on life... a lot.
I think I like writing about what I'm going through and what I'm thinking because it feels like in the movies when the main character is doing an inner monologue. I guess I like the idea of writing what I'm thinking and feeling and showing people my world.
So maybe lately I haven't wanted to share what I am going through or something. It's not like I'm depressed and I don't want anyone to know, it's just... maybe I don't know how to talk about what I'm going through. I know what's happening, I know what this process is from hearing what other, more experienced Christians have gone through in their own personal walk with God.
Though I'm still not ready to write it all down. I will sometime soon when things have been sifted through enough. The whole purpose for my blog really isn't for myself. My inner monologue is enough for just me to listen to, but I want to blog for someone who's curious about what others go through, wondering how to get through something, or just knowing there is someone who can relate to what they're going through. That's the reason. Because even though at Dibor we are required to blog once a week, if I had no other reason to do it then my blog would be simply about something I did that week and how I felt about it. No reflections, no transparency, nothing of substance.
So I hope you respond to my blogs, whoever is reading it. 'Cause what's the point in a blog if no one reads it, right? And if I'm writing stuff that doesn't make sense or is confusing then what am I doing? Just taking up space on the internet. So I hope this does something for you ^_^
